We have a new baby! But it's not me >(

So we finally had our 2nd baby! We were scheduled for a C-section on a wednesday but my wife went into labor Monday morning, so we had to rush up to the hospital that was 25 min away and get an emergency C-section goin. Everything came out all right, but since the baby was a little early she got some jaundice and had to chill out under the uv lights. I will try to get an updated picture this one was shortly after birth and they don't look too pretty.

My wife and I started talking about diapers again- I have a post on DD if you want to leave some advice. I am just hopin I can be diapered soon and not have to worry about it all anymore.

Look Ma! Juggling!

Whew it is so crazy in my world right now!

My T-shirt and Sign business has picked up...
I am also doing Graphic Arts for two magazines this month...
I had to preach twice in the last 4 weeks...
My house always needs work...
My wife is due to have another baby beginning of May...
My daughter loves to spend time with me...
Her mother too...

And... I want to get my realtor's license!

Sometimes I feel like I am doing too much, but then think- nah I can do that too!

Anyone else ever like this?

Home is where the diaper is... errr.. I mean heart.

Can I just say home ownership is TOUGH ?!?!

We have purchased a foreclosed home last November and are still working on it every week. We took the 0% GOVT loan to help bring this up to par... I still don't have a jacuzzi though :(

I have like ruined two sets of clothes with paint and dirt and my wife scolds me for it >.< Just like mom... lol.

So I have sealed and painted the inside. Put on baseboard and trim. Replaced outlets and fixtures. Laid tile in the kitchen and dining room. Painted doors. Trimmed doors. Lost my screen door and changed some locks out. Doesn't sound like much, but it is. Painted kitchen cabinets inside and out, replaced the cooktop, placed dish mats in cupboards, hung curtains, rehung curtains, cleaned everywhere... the list goes on...

Whats left? Put in refridgerator, dishwasher. Replace countertops and sink. Put up crown molding, finish the office, and hang some more curtains... almost there!!!
Will buy diapers for those who will come help ;)

Get a face-

I have been reading alot of similar blogs and posts on being open with ABDL. I would like to stand on a soap box and let out some deep felt ideas.

1. I wish more ABDL would post their faces. Real faces. I want to see real people, not JUST diaper shots. It is a problem when the basis of a community is online. There is so much safety stigma. Yea if you are under 18 be careful. Yea if you are a diapered female and live alone, be careful, be wise, and don't be stupid.

2. For those that are still "hiding." I have grace for you for it was given to me. I encourage you to seek understanding of infantilism and come to grips with reality that you are just a minority and not a freak. The true freaks are those that walk around blind and aimless, ignoring the truth, seeking only to see from their blurry vision, and heroingly pulling everyone along with them. The truth will set you free.

3. Yes our community needs a face and a good one at that. We need a well thought of point of contact with the general public. I have so many ideas floating around right now I need to get together with some of you all and give them some exposure.

That's it! Seems like Blogger is working for me now, yay!

The Clash of 2 Worlds, and a Prayer request.

posted this on DD today, but thought it good to be in the blog:

So i have recently told my wife that I like diapers... it has not been smooth sailing.

The first night she said she still loved me. But now after it has set in a little... she doesn't know what to think or to say.
She was hoping that maybe if she just ignored it, that it would go away. I told her this will not work and will only make matters worse.
She thinks it is very strange and not normal. She says its all rubbish. The "Freak" word was even thrown in there somewhere- I might have even implied it.

All I can say is that this is extremely difficult and is tearing me up inside. I am wishing I wouldnt have told her, but at the same time I was sick of living a lie! We are both Christian but the love and acceptance thing is just not kicking in. I know now by experience what the gay community has felt due to nonacceptance. And there is a whole nother area I am glossin over, but my point is that I am now being Judged by my wife. As Christians we are to judge in the fact to call something right or wrong based on the scriptures... the judgment we are called away from is from executing sentencing and condemning people for the sin in their lives. I now feel I am under condemnation for liking diapers. And it feels horrible.

For those of you that believe in the God of the Bible, your prayers are welcomed. Any sound advice will be weighed and taken. Thanks.

Diapers and Faith

I thought I might need to do my mantra post here. Someone asked me about my beliefs so I feel I need to start posting in that area as well.

KilrathiDLKR (sp) holds similar views to me.

Let me show you someone I understand and relate on about faith:
http://intodiapers.blogspot.com/2006/01/do-not-serve-two-masters.html

Its a dead blog now, but has alot of good content.
The only big disagreement I have is on the area of masturvation. That's for another blog.

Diapers are a desire of the Flesh.
Of this I have no doubt. It is not a spiritual desire. I believe some of us have had the desire so long and have satisfied it so intensely, that it seems to come from a spiritual plane, or deep down inside of us. The Expression of God tells us that the Flesh war against the Spirit and vice versa. And that we end up doing the things we don't want to do. I pray that others do not fool themselves in this matter that diapers are "something else"- they are a fleshly desire. Just like thirst and hunger, a desire for sexual gratification, a desire to fit in. When diapers come to the point of being the top priority in your life, it is now a sin. If it takes you away from God, it is a sin. If they impede your relationship with Him, they are a sin.

So how do I have this desire and stay in righteousness (right standing with God)
1)Know and Fear the LORD. He is top priority. He has also established other priorities for us to follow. I have a family. They next on that list. I have a ministry and my job. Diapers needs to hit below those two.
2)My sexual attachment and bond is to my wife. If diapers become greater- I am in sin.
3)If diapers make my brother stumble... we will have to deal with it. This is why we do not share fetishes in church. Alot of us have them, but we will not bring them up in fear that it will freak out our brethren.

We live with the flesh, the sin nature. Until we are glorified with Christ, we will have to deal with diapers. I cannot wait until that day. The desire for diapers will be stripped away- along with any other desire of the flesh and I will be perfected/completed in Christ.

Oh how many lives are scarred by this desire. No one there to tell them how it works and what it all means. How many young men could we save from abusing their minds and bodies over this silly fetish?

Blankeys and Deedees

Sidenote: Blogger has not been working right on my computer for the last week and a half. I takes like 3 reloads just to get the page up and I can't respond to other blogs! This is so frustrating me! If you know how to fix it, leave a comment here. And to the blogs I am following, I will play catch up when this is fixed.

On to the post.


I was watching a show on tv the other day called "Clean House." It is based in LA California and the show goes to ppl with messy houses and they clean them up, organize them and then make minor changes (paint and fixtures and stuff). So they are at this one ladies house and she has blankeys... and she has to have them. She said "Ever since I was a kid... they are a comfort thing. Then the show host looked on the bed and said "Do you have TWO different blankets on your bed ?!?" The lady smiled and said, "Yes, my husband and I sleep with separate blankets!" The camera turns to the husband... "She takes all the blankets when we sleep, I have to have my own!"

This is totally my wife and I. She is the blanket hog in this marriage. I am always left out in the cold. She is getting better, but on the cold nights I really have to wear my footed pjs to bed just to stay warm. My wife ALWAYS wants a comforter on our bed... Even in summer! I am like dying of heat in the summer and she wants the comforter on!!! None the less she blasts the fan too- another pep peeve of mine cause eventually I will be freezing in the night when she is covered up and I am uncovered! She says she loves the comfort and security it brings...

*sigh* Well, I love her and this is something I will have to accept as her norm. Well it is alot of ppls norm from the look of it. I cant change her, so I am learning to live with it and love her through it. This makes the relationship much better. Will I ever agree with her on it? Hrmm... maybe, but I let her do it because I want to better reinforce her sense of comfort and security.

The flip side is me... I like DeeDees. They bring me a sense of comfort and security. And for some reason I too long for this comfort and security when going to bed. Idk where that comes from. Probably from when you are getting ready for bed as a kid and your parents change your diaper and tuck you in? My favorite comfort in diapers from my last binge purge cycle was coming home from church on Sunday (it was an early morning for me being on the worship team and leading sunday school classes occasionally) and getting in a nice thick diaper. Being full from lunch, and lay down for a nap. It was like the epitome of my week, my true time of rest. Those were the best naps...

So my wife and I are not that different in loving things that bring us a sense of comfort and security. My thing is just very, very, very, and can I add one more very... uncommon.